I hate to accept the fact that I only in need when you have nobody or you want somebody to be with you when nobody else could. (nobody-somebody-nobody...apa-apa jelah...introduction yang beremosi lagi...2 entries for this close gap...bravo Farah)
Yes, I am a housewife...who just sitting in home in this desert area, which the rules are not always with woman favour. Not allow to drive--not allow to go out alone. But I'm okay with it as back to my home country I don't use to go out alone neither I used to drive unless needed. But to be more pathetic, I am a housewife with no kids YET. So my housewife job is much-much limited. But still, I can handle with this pathetic situation as everything in Allah's will. SABAR-DOA-USAHA-TAWAKAL.
However, that is not my point here. Don't get me wrong by thinking poor Farah, poor housewife, holding a degree but see her poor situation ( hey apa ni, banyaknya poor). Believe me, alhamdulillah I am much happy with this kind of life. Remember my last entry on how and what I can take advantage on my current situation.Here is the entry. Not many people can actually enjoy this kind of living as mine. Again, that is not the point. I actually hate the fact that people think a housewife like me has plenty of time. Yes, to the fact. To other friends/family, I know they have a lot of work to do (consisting- rush to office, send the kids to nursery, markerting, cooking, cleaning, washing etc) and me? only the last 3 tasks which I do everyday...hahaha...thats it...the rest, ikut suka ko lah nak buat apa lepastu..and I keep on answering people's curiosity question ---Farah, oh my God...what are you doing the whole day in home?...even my husband's friend son who is only 13 years old also have that curious question in his mind...punyalah mengambil berat...:p...well, with this a lot of leisure time which Allah grant to me, thats the reason I normally initiate 'hi, how are you?' message to all my friends or families back at home... Again, I am okay with that...seriously I understand the fact that they are busy and I don't use to disturb them..(sebulan sekali je pun)...and I don't really mind to initiate it to them....that also might be the reason why people come to me when they have problem...or luahan rasa...as Farah has plenty of time...
But then?lets get to the core point here, Alhamdulillah Allah give me those opportunity or maybe abilty (?) to help people, to ease their pain with my only 20 cents advice...I really gratefull...but I am not superwoman...who just sit back in home and relax without any problem...( who doesn't have problem in this world)...but where are they when I need them? believe me, I feel guilty with those feeling. It seems how insincerity am I showing care for them, it seems that I need the same reciprocal love and care from those people as well...It seems to me I don't help them because of Allah...but I just a friend, a sister, a family who also need some care and love just by saying--is anything we can help you? No doubt, Alhamdulillah until now I still have people that always concern bout me...its like 'just call my name, I'll be there'...
Farah is always there when they need someone's help...
Farah is there when they need some accompany...
Farah is there...Farah is there...Farah is there.....
But then?Where Farah can go when she need someone...
Sorry I am busy...sorry, my kids troubling me...sorry my time is gold...
Terkuntang-kanting lah Farah cari bantuan...
Alhamdulillah, there always unpredictable help from unpredictable people...
Thank you, Allah...You always send me Your help...
Hasbunallah wani'mal wakeel
End of emotional discussion.
Till we meet again, my blog!
Assalamualaikum....
